I’m A Psychic. You Can Be, Too.

Our backyard swing faced the eastern horizon drawn by a tree-lined creek two miles away. It was my favorite place to be alone as a kid. I pumped my arms furiously to gain height, pointing my toes up to the ever-changing Kansas sky, then swooping past wide-open fields where incessant wind tossed tumbleweeds and made dirt devils dance. I tried hard not to let my feet touch the ground as I arced between heaven and earth.

On the swing, nature felt close. I sensed some bigger mystery driving it and talked to it out loud, whatever “it” was.

Questions came to me that my Catholic upbringing couldn’t answer. Armed with exceptional reading skills and a library card, I turned to books for more insight by third grade. Cross-cultural myths and pictures of ancient times ruled by powerful deities felt familiar to me. Stories of past- lives and reincarnation, healers and shamans, and extra-sensory perception filled in the gaps.

Back then, being a psychic consultant was not a goal. I yearned to write and fancied myself a novelist and an investigative reporter. I naturally looked for connections between people and things. I felt an urgency to share, to tell stories.

Now, as on the swing long ago, I get to bridge heaven and earth when others come to me with questions. My favorite one is this:

How did you know you are psychic?

For a long time, I didn’t.

My hidden ability showed itself when I hit a messy emotional bottom at 25. Being sensitive and not understanding it is what got me there. I see it all the time in others— empathic and psychic ability masquerading as depression, addiction, and illness.

So, when someone asks that question, it reveals a deeper, more important one.

Am I psychic too?

Most of my clients are spiritual seekers. They feel they are intuitive but lack the confidence to own it. They’re soul-sick. Longing for connection and meaning but not sure how to find it. It’s a sure bet that reading them will be fun, even if their life is challenging right now.

Images and answers come quickly to me with these people. Energy rises in big waves. Chills run through my body, or I yawn suddenly to help it release.

They feel the energy move too. Tears come out of nowhere. Suddenly they understand the thing that made no sense.

I love it when a client sees or knows more than me. They have stories that begin, “You’ll probably think this is crazy…”

Nope. Not at all. The weirder, the better, I always say.

Believe it’s possible

For years I thought that only “special” people could tune into greater awareness. There are some incredibly gifted people out there, seemingly from birth. Often, they are psychically sensitive and didn’t get it drummed out of them during childhood, like so many of us. Their culture or family traditions included Spirit in daily life. They were allowed to stay connected.

When other “gifted” people told me that I could do what they do, I started to believe it. I put my faith in what they saw until I experienced it more for myself.

Faith gave me the confidence that my power is in me and spurred the curiosity to learn how to use it.

Now, I understand how intuition works for me. I confidently tap into my clairvoyance — a fancy word for seeing Spirit and energy. I empathically sense physical pain or emotions. I translate energy into color, symbols, or images that have meaning. Answers, like a thought but in another’s voice, come from my client’s higher self or from their loved ones who’ve passed away.

My intention is to be the mirror for others. To reflect who I see – a timeless being having a physical experience to learn.

I don’t know anything ahead of time about the people I read. When a new client tells me their name, that’s all I need. Birth names are the spiritual bar code stamp that lets me identify others. With my eyes closed, information and images unfurl, whether they’re sitting in front of me or thousands of miles away.

Being seen like this is validating. It’s an invitation to faith that they are something more than meets the eye.

Faith was my first step. Having faith that I am part of this universal consciousness just by being alive.

Ask. Respond. Repeat.

Faith gave me the push to start learning about how I could tap into my psychic ability for me, but I was full of doubt. I started thinking about when and how I naturally felt connected. What prompted it? What did I do? And how could I recreate it for my practical use?

I asked my intuition to speak; I requested guidance without making assumptions. Then I started paying closer attention to my thoughts and environment to see what kind of feedback I was getting.

I tuned into my body for physical clues, like a gut feeling, chills, or a racing heart. I asked myself simple yes or no questions and followed through to see where it took me. I checked inside when planning my days for the best way to “go with the flow.” Ease is a great indicator. It’s where psychic guidance naturally wants to go.

The more I paid attention and took action, the more I trusted what I saw, heard, and felt. My relationship with the language of my higher self and consciousness grew over time. The more I communicated with it, the stronger it became.

When it comes to reading others, I trust what I receive, even if I don’t understand it. I’m tapping into the field of consciousness full of archetypes, symbols, and metaphors.

Sometimes I’m the one that says, “this might sound crazy,” and commence with what makes no sense to me. My client usually gets it.

It’s not about me.

Early on during my spiritual training, being smug or overly enthusiastic about picking up on things others didn’t was sometimes a problem. Like an annoying kid showing off a new toy.

Being psychic is not a party trick. Nor is it a reason to be a know-it-all or to offer unsolicited advice. (Ok, I still struggle with the unsolicited advice bit when I see people suffering.)

When insights and inspiration come through for others, it’s not about me. It’s about the joined conversation drawing from shared wisdom. I say hello to someone’s Spirit and ask them on that level what it is they need to know. The answer is in the questioner, like a book open for me to read.

Being humble keeps me in kindergarten — curious and open. The universe responds to that.

Be an everyday psychic.

Being psychic makes daily life easier. It helps avoid obstacles, delays and mistakes. How often do you regret not trusting your gut?

It’s great for decision-making.   Intuition structures my day with the best timing to make calls or schedule appointments.  Experience shows that my logical mind is not nearly as imaginative as universal consciousness when problem-solving. Answers come in creative ways.

I plan trips by sensing into the energy of a place to “try it on.”  Is it a good fit?

When my body hurts, I speak to the pain and the energy it holds, and find relief. I call on Spirit for guidance through my tarot cards when upset or overthinking things.

Awareness puts us in flow – in the zone, in the pocket – where creative energy hums through us and resistance falls away. Why struggle day to day?

I’m psychic, but I’m not unique. Being psychic is a connection to a universal oneness available to everyone. It’s there for you, too.

It’s All in the Cards

This well loved book has been my guide for 20 years. The cover is no longer attached, pages are falling out. It’s dog-eared and dirty from my hands flipping pages thousands of times.

Today, I broke down and ordered a new one for the next 20 years. But I’m still keeping this one.

Every new year’s eve I take time to meditate on what’s passed, and where I want to go. Then I shuffle and draw 10 cards following the Whole Person Spread developed by Angeles Arrien as described in the book. It’s one of my best tools for letting intuition do long term planning for personal growth.

Some years look scary; others glorious. But as I check back in over the ensuing months when I’m in need of big picture direction, I see how the lessons and opportunities I laid out before me have come to fruition.

I’m just about to read my 2020 spread and consider how things played out in all the aspects of life covered in my cards. I did a sneak peak reminder just a few weeks ago to check the number 10 card position. This one portends the natural expression of what wants to come through, or what needs to be released

It’s the Nine of Wands-Strength.

I wrote on my list of cards I keep tucked in my monthly planner: “A completion number. Trust my inner and outer strength.”

Given the year we’ve just had, I think I nailed it.

I can’t wait to see what’s next.

There’s magic in this book

Intuition leads me down interesting paths to inspiration and guidance when I’m most in need, which often shows up in a book. The Secret of The Alchemist is an amazing book about another book, The Alchemist by Paulo Coehlo, that had a profound impact on me 25 years ago and shaped my spirituality and world view.

I don’t remember now how I recently stumbled upon Colm Holland and his new book The Secret of The Alchemist, but it all started when the word alchemy came to me in my morning writing. As often happens, a word will leap out at me and I sense a kind of “freeze frame” moment that compels me to look it up in the dictionary. What does it really mean? What do I think it means? Where did the word come from? The usual word nerd questions.

What I found struck a long, deep chord in me. One word summed up everything I love, try to learn, and try to teach through my work and writing.

“The process of taking something ordinary and turning it into something extraordinary, sometimes in a way that can’t be explained.”

Total goosebumps. And then I found this book, written by the man who was instrumental in the English version publication of The Alchemist, which has sold more than any book worldwide until recently, when it was bumped by J.K. Rowling’s Harry Potter and the Sorcerer’s Stone – another book about alchemy.

The Alchemist is a simple but powerful allegory about following your dreams, finding your treasure, and learning the language of the Soul. I’ve read it many times over the years, and passed the book on to family and friends as a must read.

The Secret of the Alchemist takes a deep dive into ancient alchemy and it’s true meaning, and what it means for us all. It is a wonderful guidebook to the magic hidden in plain sight all along and shows how we can transform our ordinary lives into something extraordinary.

I’m grateful to find this book and Colm Holland, who’s words jump off the page with a sincerity and a commitment to Love and transformation that I find so healing right now.

Thank you Colm.

Careful What You Wish For

In the year since publishing Down and Back, I’ve been pulled to focus on family and the needs of others by facing new and unexpected challenges – illness, death, moves – all of which pulled me further from my own center and my love of writing.

In the midst of taking care of others, I wished for more downtime to follow my urge to write. As autumn arrived, I told myself I must get back to writing, promising myself I would spend time at my desk and listen to the words that had started bubbling up again.

Apparently, I didn’t act fast enough. In October I had a freak accident at home. I dropped a food processor blade on the top of my foot. It hit perfectly between two thick leather straps on my sandal, severing the main tendon.

After a hasty surgery, I was given orders. No walking for six weeks. None. No weight on the foot at all.

Once the initial disbelief wore off, (followed by a mini pity-party) I found my center long enough to ask “What can I learn from this?”

Now at five weeks post-surgery, the lessons have been enormous. The first being the reminder that when my Spirit is prompting me in a direction through my intuition and desire the sooner I listen, the better.  Spirit moves faster than the body, and it can be hard to keep up. But I will unwittingly force myself into situations that urge me in the right direction.  At times it takes a lot to get my attention.

I’ve been called for some time to be still, to listen more closely to what my heart wants, and to get back into my creative flow that is in alignment with consciousness.  Being busy, avoiding my feelings, putting others needs and schedules first is deeply engrained in me. Stopping on my own volition was too slow in coming. My wiser self gave me one option.

Sit down! Put your feet up. Read. Write. Pay attention. Let go of all the unimportant things. Let others take care of themselves.

That blade out of nowhere was a gift. It’s allowed me to go deeper into practicing what I preach and find new levels of awareness about my connection to my Spirit and others.  Readings with clients are deeper and richer. The right people come to me to reflect even more of who I am and what I need now. I’m writing again and finding enthusiasm in making connections that I plan to share with others in a new way.

So, the next time I find myself wishing, I’ll be careful and make it a conscious decision to move toward what I want. No procrastinating. I don’t want Spirit getting too creative on me again to get my attention.

 

Finding Light in the Dark

Creative, empathic, sensitive folks are the light-bearers of the world when they align with the immense power of  consciousness that wants to flow through them.  When this power isn’t recognized or you step out of flow, it can turn on you. The blessing becomes the curse as you tumble into overwhelm, anxiety, depression, and disconnection from your Self – taking on more than is really yours energetically and emotionally, and missing the messages trying to guide you.

Owning and redirecting your psychic sensitivity is just one of the tools I share in Down and Back to help you discover the wisdom hiding in the darkness of depression.  I’m so excited to launch my book into the world – it’s one expression of creative consciousness that has been pushing on me for years as a life-long dream to be an author.

Down and Back is a guide to a new kind of success for the depressed, bored, and disenchanted. It will help you move your life in a fortunate direction as you change your perspective of yourself, and the world. It’s for anyone who knows what they want to do but never seem to do it. There’s a reason you don’t- you’ve forgotten who you really are!

You can find the E-book version below and check out more of the content to see how you can be happier with the life you have while you create a life you love. Paperback sales are available now too!!

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I’m Back!!

Looking out the window I realize that me and the leaves are the same – we both disappeared last fall and are just now making an appearance. I’ve been grounded close to home and family through illness, loss, opportunity and inevitable change. Though difficult, it’s been good because I learned something at a deeper level.

Loss frees up space to be more authentic.

Time for work has been pushed aside these last months but when I have it, I’ve chosen to pursue a lifelong dream – to write and publish books. I’m excited to say that my first book will be born in the summer.

Balancing family and work is never easy.  Even after 20 years of practice, I teeter in favor of one side only to find myself neglecting the other in some way.    

When life gets fuller and bigger, it requires letting go of expectation.  There are some things that just aren’t going to get done. 

There are things I don’t know how to do and must ask for help.

There are still other things I will mess up entirely, but it’s not the end of the world. I’m learning how to work sporadically but efficiently to get things done. I’m learning. as my husband constantly reminds me, “to win the war, not the battle.”

Spring finds me blooming in new ways. I’m showing up with intention to be authentic in all that I do – especially when it comes to sharing the connection between my personal and work life. I’ll be sharing more about my book and asking for your thoughts about the things I teach and that teach me – Spirit, intuition, depression and more.

I am really excited to re-connect with you and value you in my life. 

This Spring of my life has been a long time coming. I’ve learned the hard way that all seeds are planted in the dark.  I can’t wait to see what grows.Tree from Alley

How to Find What’s Missing

It’s been a long winter for some, dampening dispositions along with our usually sunny California skies. Perhaps weathering life lately has been a challenge, and despite the clouds lifting all around, your mood isn’t.   You’re not depressed exactly, but certainly not pumped. You’re busy in the daily routine, going through the motions. and not looking forward to anything. Perhaps you’re bored, wondering is this all there is? You sense that something is missing but you don’t know what it is.

The thing that’s missing is you– your sense of self, well-being, meaning, and purpose. It’s an easy trap to fall into. It means you’re not connected. This is living life on the surface, skimming along unaware and missing out on the deeper, richer parts of life. Here are a few tips to shake off the flatlined feeling of disconnection and plug into your life in a way that actually feels alive.

Connect with your Body

Most of us live in our heads, mulling over the do’s and don’ts of the day, planning work and family schedules weeks out, dreaming about vacation, stewing over the past. Did you know that well over 50% of our thoughts are the same ones we think every day?  Rarely are we in the present moment, tuned into ourselves and our environment.

Living in your head keeps you out of your body and out of your emotions. Instead, slow down long enough to ask lovingly yourself “how’re you doing?” You might be surprised at what you hear. Do you have any idea why you’re angry, lonely, or feeling down in the dumps? Have you even put a name to how your feeling to it to begin with? With no connection to your body you’re a balloon on a string, floating through life at the whim of the wind, only adding to the belief that life is out of your control.

Throughout the day, close your eyes and take a deep breath. Check in with your body by asking these three simple questions: Am I tired? Am I hungry? Am I thirsty?   Respond by giving to yourself in a healthy way. If you need a nap, take it. A 15- minute power nap is far better than slamming down a mocha frappuccino to get you through the rest of the day.

Connect with your Soul

The beat of our hearts directs the rhythm of our bodies, but it’s our heart in the bigger sense orchestrating what has meaning and value to us. What do you love? What tugs at your heartstrings, makes your heart sing? This is the language of your soul – the unique spiritual aspect that makes you purely you.

When you feel like something is missing it’s your soul trying to get your attention. Have you given up your quirkiness to conform? Is your personality reflected in your home, your clothes, or the work you do? Do you cater to your whims, your fancies and your needs? Doing so connects you back up to your original self, and when you do, a life force energy comes with it that feeds your motivation, creativity and contentment.

The ways to connect with your soul are as diverse as humanity– but there are universal things that feed us all, like beauty, quiet, laughter, music, and color.

What’s good for your soul? It could be watching your dog romp in the grass, tracking a hawk sailing across the sky, or pedaling a mountain bike up a steep hill. Or maybe it’s fresh flowers on the table every week, taking in a live performance in the City, or screaming your lungs out at a Warrior game. Whatever it is, make it a priority to do it.

Connect with the World

We all know what it’s like to feel alone in a crowd. When you interact with people daily without genuine connection, life can be lonely and stale.

When did you last spend quality time with someone just talking, laughing, and doing something fun? When you felt heard and seen, and not responsible for taking care of someone’s expectations? Find those people to spend genuine, heartfelt moments with. They are the ones who reflect the best of you, and you them. Consider ways to connect with the people you live and work with in a more meaningful way. When you begin from a present awareness of your genuine self, your experience of others shifts dramatically.

You can seek soulful connection with people intellectually. Attend a lecture , conference or a compelling performance. Listen to an author speak, see a great movie. Connect your mind to like minds in a way that is dynamic, creative, and inquisitive – in a way that sparks possibility in you apart from everyday life.

Being in a group stimulates and satisfies the primal part of your brain wired to belong to a tribe – it means safety and security on a deep, unconscious level. Even the most introverted of us needs to belong among people, even for a while. Where do you feel like you belong? Look for opportunities in church, school or create a tribe of your own grounded in something you love.

The best way to slow down, center yourself, get in touch with your feelings and check out what has really been running your mind is to get in nature. We all know intuitively we feel better in nature, and science backs it up. We are happier in nature because we are nature too. Tapping back into the pulse of the Earth’s electromagnetic field, to the wind around us, the bustle of birds and bugs, the peace of deer grazing on a hill, a show of light and sound as water tumbles over rocks calms the nervous system, reduces stress, and clears the mind. Spending time outdoors repeatedly in positive ways can actually create new neural pathways in the brain– in other words – nature changes how you think and how you feel.

Connecting helps you find what’s missing – your bigger Self – through the language of your Soul, in nature, and interactions with others. Connecting creates the shift that lets you experience life as happening through you, not to you. As you connect with what’s missing, the power to choose more of the life you want becomes clear.

3 Ways to End 2016 on Purpose

 

The next two weeks are a powerful time to tap into universal energies now in play that can connect you to your Soul’s intuitive voice. Are you ready for clarity to live your best life, whatever it may be?  The close of 2016 marks the end of a larger energetic 9-year cycle. Life on many levels is completing and new possibilities are opening up for the next nine years.   Mercury goes Retrograde on the 19th, demanding that we slow down, and the Solstice on Dec. 21 brings the longest night and a new season.  Why fight the Universe? Here are three suggestions for going with the flow and making the most of the rest of your year:

1.       Finish up old emotional business – let go of feelings you know are keeping you stuck by admitting them to yourself or another out loud or in writing. Release and resolve it in a healthy way.

2.       Give yourself credit for all the positive things you learned or changed this year. Take them forward to build on in the new year.

3.       Spend time alone reflecting, remembering, and renewing. Just be quiet and breathe. What is beginning in you?

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Let Go of Your Walls

You know the old saying that once learned, you never forget how to ride a bicycle? It’s not true – and it is.

I just spent 20 minutes sitting on my bike, which I used frequently until an unsuccessful knee surgery last October, trying to remember how to ride. Or at least trying to convince my body it knew how.

I had to raise the seat really high to give myself room for a less painful revolution, so my knee wouldn’t bend more than absolutely necessary. I started by pedaling backwards, hanging on to the wall and getting a feel for going around and around. My body instinctively contorted to move away from the pain as my knee bent at the hardest point in the revolution – expecting pain, anticipating trouble.   To my surprise, it hurt less than I thought it would.

“Okay, not bad,” I told myself. “Now slow it down and see where the pain is. See if I can get past it.” I went round and round, slowly, adjusting myself on the seat, changing my foot position, breathing and relaxing. Anything to make it feel easier, less painful, and more balanced.

It got better. But as long as I focused on the pain, it was still there.

“Screw it, just go fast,” my taskmaster side came through. “Who cares what it looks like, just push through. If it hurts, it hurts – it won’t kill you.” I felt sufficiently beat up and pedaled faster. Still in reverse, still going nowhere.

Time to let go of the wall. I looked down the driveway out to the court.   I couldn’t’ let go of that damn wall. My mind was freaking out, sounding like a five year old just learning to ride – I’m going to fall, it’s too high. It’s too far. I can’t do it. It’s going to hurt. I was SCARED. I flashed on the first time I rode a bike. My parents let go and I went straight into a barbed wire fence.

Right behind Fear came Logic. Don’t be ridiculous! Just go as far as the shady part. Look – all the mailboxes are tall enough to grab for balance. If you go that way you can land on the grass if you fall. All these thoughts back and forth –fear telling me to stay, logic telling me to go. Neither one moved me forward.

But I could feel something stronger rising from the very center of me. That force – a thing inside that wants to push through no matter what – that has no thought, no words. It took over and I was off. I pushed down with my “Bad” knee and pedaled away. Easy. Didn’t hurt. It was NO BIG DEAL. I glided out of the court, turned around and came back to the garage. I stopped and jumped off the seat – from that high, scary, unbalanced place – just like I jumped off my bike without thinking so many times before.

With both feet firmly on the concrete I lifted my hands from the handlebar. They were shaking. I DID it!

I jumped on that bike this morning spontaneously and without a plan.   And until then I didn’t realize how scared I’ve been about pushing myself not only physically but creatively – how many old fears were running around my head in deeply worn ruts that have no basis in truth.

The mind can convince us, through thoughts that lead to emotions – that we are incapable of being and doing more. That we must protect ourselves from pain. That we must not stand too tall in the world lest we fall and make a fool of ourselves.

But the deep knowing of intuition – that driving force of the higher, wiser Self in us all – is always there if we let it be. It never forgets. It is always right. And it will always move us further and faster if we just let go.

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Listen to your Heart

Today I saw an amazing picture of Pluto just sent back by the New Horizon space probe that’s been flying through space for nine years.   I was surprised by Pluto’s bland colors and thought it’s not very pretty – until I saw that its landscape formed what looked to me like a huge heart on the surface.

I find meaning in everything. There’s a reason that contact with Pluto is happening now, so curiosity drove me to check the meaning of Pluto  from an astrological perspective.   (I swear I’m not an astrologer though I refer to the practice often. I’m a naturalist. We are in the same system with the natural world, and it affects us all.)

Pluto symbolizes transformation, regeneration, and rebirth.  It also governs things hidden, secretive, and subversive.  Pluto is as my first glance revealed– not pretty, but it demands that we look inside our hearts. It affects the masses and now is a time when “good and evil” seem to be playing out even more on a large scale.

For me the message is clear. For real change to happen I must be in my heart. To help shift the balance of light and dark reflected in my life, I need to search my heart.

Being in your heart accesses the transformative power of Pluto on so many levels. It requires too that you look at the dark side of your own heart, what is hidden and corrupt, what is destructive to you and perhaps others. But the heart is huge when you go inside it. There’s so much good waiting there. What’s hidden can be revealed and transformed to create something new in your life – a new attitude, a new resolve to  make meaning in your daily acts, the courage to finally face the darkness that taints your life by hiding behind anger, fear, addictions, judgement  – and be fully in the world.

What does it mean to be in your heart? To act from your heart?  First and foremost it means to be quiet and breathe. Bring attention down out of the mind and thoughts, and simply breathe into and through your physical heart center. This is the fourth chakra, our energetic heart center.

From this place, the heart informs the mind as to what is true. It circumvents the chatter of the mind, the voices of others, and answers important questions like “what is right action?” or “am I being honest” or “why am I afraid?”

It’s taken me a long time to understand what it means to be in my heart and like New Horizon my journey continues, bringing new information as yet unknown. What I do know is that I am most in my heart when I work with others doing readings or share through writing. As a clairvoyant and spiritual mentor, I can see and unlock the energetic potential and blocks in the fourth chakra, and support you in discovering what it means to live from the heart. More importantly, I help you see what’s hidden to transform your life.