We need you now

If you feel you can’t do anything right now, do this. We can’t solve this craziness or feel better from a place of fear. Let’s use our super-power of sensitivity to shift the energy now.

One thing I know for sure is that our inner world is reflected in the outer world. Obviously, we are out of balance. The only way back to balance is to find our center – our stronger, clearer Self who knows the way.We can impact the energy of the world just as much as we are being impacted by it right now.

This isn’t “woo-woo” bullshit or being grandiose. Just like a social media post going viral worldwide, we can lock onto a new reality together, blow it up, and make it go viral in the collective conscience, the universal energy field that connects us all. Center. Send. Share.

To help I’m giving away my book as a quick read and reminder of your power, how to ground, and what to do to feel better now. PM if you’d like one. Give it to any other empathic, sensitive, depressed, anxious person you know. Let’s turn this around.

When things fall apart

I was just out running another frantic errand trying to solve someone else’s problem and got stuck at a red light behind a Toyota minivan with a creepy cartoon sticker in the window proclaiming Existence is Pain.

It sure the hell is, was my first thought. And I went into a five second pity party about the way life has been coming at me the last few weeks. Then I got pissed. Yes, life is painful, but that’s not all there is. Move on.

It’s been a doozy of a Mercury Retrograde, so I’m calling it out right here to nip it in the bud.  I’m not falling into victim mode and blaming the stars for my recent troubles – stressful miscommunication, DMV paperwork issues, broken tech – just for starters.  Rather, I’m writing to remind myself that these larger energies in play are real.  Given that my power lies in being sensitive to energy, I can’t drop the ball on being diligent as to how I’m impacted by the world, and Universe, around me. I have an obligation to myself and others to pay attention, and use what prevails in a positive, hopeful, or productive way. 

Usually I’m not bothered by Mercury retrograde, but I am affected by people close to me and if they happen to be experiencing the poster child version of a Mercury retrograde nightmare, well, then I kind of go down the tubes too. That is until I wake up and notice what’s actually theirs (emotions, energy, experience) is not mine.  And, I don’t help one bit by joining them in the story that everything is falling apart or going wrong.

Mercury, which is fact my ruling planet as a Gemini, is retrograde until March 10. But, I’m ready for things to turn more positively right NOW despite its trajectory.

Here’s what I’m going to do:  Slow down. Stop RE-acting.  Although it is the time for “re-” words, like review, revise, remember, redecorate, or reconsider, REACTING just digs me deeper into trouble. When things blow up, I’ll give it an hour, a day – then decide a course of action.  Reacting usually comes from a place of anger, fear or some other useless place.  Deep breaths, back to center and a clear mind. That’s my goal.

Humor is good too. Sometimes the only thing you can do is laugh when yet another crazy “bad” thing happens out of the blue.  Swearing is good too. My hubby and I have been doing lots of that lately, because it makes us laugh.

What are you doing to make the most of things falling apart? Have you found some silver linings?

Full Moon Wishes

The first of new intentions complete, with a little help from this magical moon I think!

Several months ago I lost a Barnes and Noble gift card my mom-in-law gave me. I’d found it when we were packing up her house last summer to move her nearer to us, and I checked it to see if it was still “good.”  Lo and behold, it had over $60 credit on it. I was thrilled when she told me to keep it, because who doesn’t love free books?

I tucked it in my wallet to save for leisurely trip to the bookstore. Fortunately, we have a brick and mortar Barnes and Noble not far from our home. I hoped to make it an outing with my daughter or mom to walk lazily down aisles reading titles.

So, when the day came to go shopping, my coveted plastic gift was no where to be found. I searched all my bags, and quizzed my daughter.  “Did I give it to you to use?”  Of course, she hadn’t seen it. 

I was disappointed, and then angry at my carelessness.  Where did it go? How could I lose it?  Though it is not a big deal in the scheme of things, it bothered me and continued to over the months, prompting me to search for it several times.  I just wanted those books!

And, just now I reached into my tote bag to pull out my calendar and with it came the gift card,  sitting right on top as if I put it there yesterday.  It felt like Christmas all over again!

Earlier this week I started my annual planning and intention setting. I wrote a list of goals and intentions both big and small to fill up my year.  One of them that unexpectedly popped out of my pen onto the paper was this:

Funny, now that I turn back to my planner to quote myself I find my intention isn’t there. I distinctly recall writing it. As I look at the bright full moon descending outside my window I can only laugh. I feel the tug of the in between place where reality blurs, the place I revere and strive to stay connected to.

I woke early this morning but stepped into a dream of wishing and receiving. I’m content, filled up as I gaze at black trees silhouetted against a sapphire sky. Luna shines bright and suddenly, as  happens on a powerful moon when I give her my attention, there are three moons out my window. Her beauty refracts and I see a reflection on either side of her. I don’t know why this happens. No matter where I turn my head, or what window I look through, the images don’t disappear. I witness a trinity of lunar power.

I’m grateful for these moments of deep connection and magic. When the unexplained happens, and mystery answers my prayers. It’s welcome as I shift into this new life of more time and space since the girls are so far away at school. The house, and my energy field, feel empty and wide open. I intend to fill it up with things I love almost as much as them so their absence doesn’t pain me.

Today is a good day, and it’s just begun.

Careful What You Wish For

In the year since publishing Down and Back, I’ve been pulled to focus on family and the needs of others by facing new and unexpected challenges – illness, death, moves – all of which pulled me further from my own center and my love of writing.

In the midst of taking care of others, I wished for more downtime to follow my urge to write. As autumn arrived, I told myself I must get back to writing, promising myself I would spend time at my desk and listen to the words that had started bubbling up again.

Apparently, I didn’t act fast enough. In October I had a freak accident at home. I dropped a food processor blade on the top of my foot. It hit perfectly between two thick leather straps on my sandal, severing the main tendon.

After a hasty surgery, I was given orders. No walking for six weeks. None. No weight on the foot at all.

Once the initial disbelief wore off, (followed by a mini pity-party) I found my center long enough to ask “What can I learn from this?”

Now at five weeks post-surgery, the lessons have been enormous. The first being the reminder that when my Spirit is prompting me in a direction through my intuition and desire the sooner I listen, the better.  Spirit moves faster than the body, and it can be hard to keep up. But I will unwittingly force myself into situations that urge me in the right direction.  At times it takes a lot to get my attention.

I’ve been called for some time to be still, to listen more closely to what my heart wants, and to get back into my creative flow that is in alignment with consciousness.  Being busy, avoiding my feelings, putting others needs and schedules first is deeply engrained in me. Stopping on my own volition was too slow in coming. My wiser self gave me one option.

Sit down! Put your feet up. Read. Write. Pay attention. Let go of all the unimportant things. Let others take care of themselves.

That blade out of nowhere was a gift. It’s allowed me to go deeper into practicing what I preach and find new levels of awareness about my connection to my Spirit and others.  Readings with clients are deeper and richer. The right people come to me to reflect even more of who I am and what I need now. I’m writing again and finding enthusiasm in making connections that I plan to share with others in a new way.

So, the next time I find myself wishing, I’ll be careful and make it a conscious decision to move toward what I want. No procrastinating. I don’t want Spirit getting too creative on me again to get my attention.

 

Finding Light in the Dark

Creative, empathic, sensitive folks are the light-bearers of the world when they align with the immense power of  consciousness that wants to flow through them.  When this power isn’t recognized or you step out of flow, it can turn on you. The blessing becomes the curse as you tumble into overwhelm, anxiety, depression, and disconnection from your Self – taking on more than is really yours energetically and emotionally, and missing the messages trying to guide you.

Owning and redirecting your psychic sensitivity is just one of the tools I share in Down and Back to help you discover the wisdom hiding in the darkness of depression.  I’m so excited to launch my book into the world – it’s one expression of creative consciousness that has been pushing on me for years as a life-long dream to be an author.

Down and Back is a guide to a new kind of success for the depressed, bored, and disenchanted. It will help you move your life in a fortunate direction as you change your perspective of yourself, and the world. It’s for anyone who knows what they want to do but never seem to do it. There’s a reason you don’t- you’ve forgotten who you really are!

You can find the E-book version below and check out more of the content to see how you can be happier with the life you have while you create a life you love. Paperback sales are available now too!!

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You Have the Power to be Happy

What better day to announce that my book will be published next month! Today is the day the veil between worlds is thinnest, and we can access the help and wisdom of Spirit, and the Crone. Though lost to most, today is the day to remember that the dark has something to offer us, and that as the landscape dies and we head into winter we have the promise of light and hope.

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My book offers the same journey – to understand that the darkness that settles around us at times is rich with hope and change. It holds the power of your creative energy, empathy and psychic ability waiting to be channeled in a positive direction for your highest good.

Got Questions?

Life is all about making choices – in every moment we face decisions about how to be, what to do, how to feel. Most stress comes down to daily decisions we have to make, and if you are alone in those decisions with no partner, support or input, the stress is worse. Decisions like “should I take this job,” “what contractor should I hire,” “How do I pay the bills this month,” “What’s best for my daughter right now?”   keep us spinning in our minds with no resolution.

Procrastination and indecision arise when you lack the confidence to know “what’s right” and look to something outside of yourself to make you feel confident. But what if the answers have been there all along and you just didn’t know it?

The wisdom of your intuition is available to you at all times. It is the language of your Soul trying to point you in the right direction and line you up with the universal flow of divine energy.

Intuition is knowing without knowing how you know. It appears when the logical mind steps out of the way and information not readily or obviously available by means of the senses comes through. It is direct, immediate, clear, and certain.

It shows up in numerous ways – a flash of a thought, a chill up your spine, a vague gut feeling. It’s an inner voice, a song on the radio at just the right time, an out-of-the blue remark by a stranger. It may not be the sign you are looking for, but it is the sign you need.

Intuition cuts through indecision. At any point, on any matter, you can ask “what’s the best action?” By aligning with inner guidance, you stop indecision and worry and act more confidently.

Following intuition lets you live from a place of personal power, free of worrying about what other people think. With your own source of wisdom, you’re no longer dependent upon advice, affirmation, or approval from others. You live more authentically, free of helplessness, and emptiness. You stop feeling like a victim when you choose and take action instead of letting things happen. Intuition leads you from being quietly numb into a quietly extraordinary life. Life happens through you, not to you.

Welcome intuition into your life by acknowledging its existence – the more you accept that it is a part of you, that it works for you, the more it will show up.

Here’s your sign. You really do know.

 

 

WHEN YOU’RE OVERWHELMED

Overwhelm you're OKYour mind races and you can’t hold a thought, your gut burns and it’s hard to breathe. You can’t sleep, though you’re exhausted. You’re wired and depressed at the same time.  You have demands to meet, things to get done, decisions to make –  yet you stand like a deer in the headlights, unable to move as life keeps barreling toward you.

 
Try these three steps to stop feeling overwhelmed by emotions, life, and the energy of others. Nothing changes if nothing changes, so it’s time to try something new.

 
First, find yourself, then you’ll find the answers.
You can’t solve problems from the state you’re in, and the worry and anxiety that got you there don’t help either.  Thinking more, working harder, moving faster are counterproductive. Your priority right now is peace.  What is the quickest, healthy way to move your mind to a more peaceful state?  Do this now. You’re taking action, but in a way that brings you to the place that will allow you to move forward.   Get outside, breathe deeply and slowly. Check out free guided meditation apps like insighttimer.com  or www.headspace.com

 
Time solves many problems.
What feels critical to act on immediately may not be – everything is not a fire drill.   Time reveals information and answers you don’t have right now, and it’s the not knowing that contributes to being overwhelmed.  Often the best action is no action until you are clearer on what to do. Allow yourself time to “sleep on it,” or set a problem aside for a specific time with the intention of coming back to address it head-on. This isn’t procrastination, it’s purposefully planning to deal with one thing at a time, at the right time.

 
Get in reality. 
Bring yourself into the moment by focusing on basic survival.  Remind yourself of the immediate truth like “I’m safe. I have food. I have shelter. I am loved. I am healthy,” to calm the panicked voice driving your fear and anxiety.  Being in the moment gives you solid ground to stand on. Changing your thoughts to what’s working, even in small ways, calms your emotions and signals your body to settle down as well.
Being overwhelmed is a sign you’re disconnected – from yourself, your body, your Spirit, and others. Stepping back and checking in gets you plugged back into the source of your power to let you see you really will be OK.

 

 

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I’m Back!!

Looking out the window I realize that me and the leaves are the same – we both disappeared last fall and are just now making an appearance. I’ve been grounded close to home and family through illness, loss, opportunity and inevitable change. Though difficult, it’s been good because I learned something at a deeper level.

Loss frees up space to be more authentic.

Time for work has been pushed aside these last months but when I have it, I’ve chosen to pursue a lifelong dream – to write and publish books. I’m excited to say that my first book will be born in the summer.

Balancing family and work is never easy.  Even after 20 years of practice, I teeter in favor of one side only to find myself neglecting the other in some way.    

When life gets fuller and bigger, it requires letting go of expectation.  There are some things that just aren’t going to get done. 

There are things I don’t know how to do and must ask for help.

There are still other things I will mess up entirely, but it’s not the end of the world. I’m learning how to work sporadically but efficiently to get things done. I’m learning. as my husband constantly reminds me, “to win the war, not the battle.”

Spring finds me blooming in new ways. I’m showing up with intention to be authentic in all that I do – especially when it comes to sharing the connection between my personal and work life. I’ll be sharing more about my book and asking for your thoughts about the things I teach and that teach me – Spirit, intuition, depression and more.

I am really excited to re-connect with you and value you in my life. 

This Spring of my life has been a long time coming. I’ve learned the hard way that all seeds are planted in the dark.  I can’t wait to see what grows.Tree from Alley

Equinox

Fall camelia 2017I welcome nature’s lesson in balance today as the equinox makes equal length of dark and light.

Of late, I wake before the alarm, feeling nervous and restless. My daughter has been sick again for weeks with no improvement. As one symptom abates, another rises to take its place. I’m worried, and feel helpless as I don’t know what to do next to help her heal. Her body is overcome with an illness I can’t control, and the quality of her life is on the line.

At the same, the Earth’s body has been ravaged by dis-ease. The forests burn, the ground shakes and rearranges itself, and the oceans give rise to monster storms. As one abates, another rises to take its place. There is so much unrest.

One morning, before rising, I ask prayerfully, how in the midst of all of this do I find my equanimity?

An image comes to me of Earth from a thousand miles up. The clouds are moving softly, and the oceans’ currents flow as they should. Despite the chaos on the surface we experience up close, this celestial body we call home hangs solid and sure, anchored to its place in the universe by forces we cannot see. It’s the pull of something larger than itself that keeps it orbiting, and its core that keeps it spinning and balanced at the poles.

Later I take my coffee outside to stand barefoot on the grass and let the chill air wake me. Autumn calls as I feel the tug of the Earth’s center slow my heart – let go, let go, let go.

Finding balance starts with the tiniest bit of willingness and a shift in awareness. Nature never fails to answer my prayers. With new eyes, I see the camellia bushes lining the fence, still glossy and green, but dusted with cobwebs and dried leaves. To my surprise, the branches are full of pale buds – a sign of the vivid pink blossoms that grow, odd and beautiful, every winter.

Aren’t they early? Should they be growing this soon? More questions that don’t need to be answered. Their presence is enough. My heart lightens with this reminder that in times that require letting go in life, something brilliant and unexpected can show up, and will, if I keep my eyes open and my feet on the ground.